What the ??

I find myself sitting back in contemplation more recently, than perhaps I ever have.
I find myself thinking of the old days (as though I'm old or something... pashawww!)
Remembering friendships long forgotten, some of whom just drifted away. Some of whom were taken, abruptly and unfairly by the Angel of Death. I don't know why exactly this is, or why it's bothering me as it is.
Remembering growing up, the stupid things I did as a teenager, the simple fact of how lucky I am to have survived those years.
Remembering my late teens and early twenties, when the whole world seemed as though it was ahead of me, and I hadn't the foggiest clue what the hell I was going to do with my life, in all reality.
Remembering certain adventures throughout the years, wishing I could have had more of them.
I wonder how my life came to be what it is. I wonder how many people in all the world around me wonder exactly the same thing. My guess is pretty much every single person who has ever and will ever live. So it's not as though I'm special, because I'm just one of the many. But still.

Ch Ch Changes

All these changes, and no time to enjoy them. Or to despise them, if that happens to be the case.
I can't help but notice that, once again, Summer is drawing to a close. And once again, I feel as though I've failed to enjoy it to the fullest. I blame work.

The boss told me today that he's planning on hiring two new people. Both of which are more qualified to do my job than I am. Just a little unsettling. First thing out of his mouth was about all the Cisco certifications this one particular individual has. Well, good for him. I've been trying to get mine for the past four years, but don't even have the time to study, much less take the test and get the certs. Work, kids, chores, nap, homework, Scouts, work. By my math, that leaves about 90 seconds of free time per day. Oh wait, I guess I could give up some sleep so I could study. I mean after all, who really needs more than four hours of sleep per night? LOL.
He was telling me about how "great" this one particular guy is going to be, mentioning some of the things he could do, that are already MY areas of expertise... now, I may be paranoid, but to me that smacks of the kind of competition that I really don't want. So, I guess the game's afoot...

Then there's that other little thing that recently entered my life. A little thing that makes me smile. Makes me hot. Makes me horny. Makes me happy. Makes me content. A little thing that I just can't seem to get out of my mind. All all. Day or night. Waking or sleeping. I think I've had an erection pretty much non stop for days now... okay, since June. But especially in the last couple of days. :)
I find myself making every effort to be in certain parts of the building each morning. A glance, a smile, some eye contact. I feel like a teenager again. Now, that is a... well, let's say "fun" feeling, for lack of a better term at the moment. THANK YOU! You know who you are. I'm looking forward to Monday morning :)

So I took a nice long hike on Friday morning... up to Mt. Galbraith overlooking Golden and Mt. Morrison. LOVE it up there. Such a wonderful and beautiful place, and so nearby that I don't have to drive for hours to get there. I was only up there for a few hours, but it felt like the entire day. There's this one particular spot, just a few yards off the beaten path, that you can comfortably prop yourself upon, and enjoy a panoramic view with Hwy 6 to the left and the nearest peak of the continental divide to your right. A steep canyon below completes the scene, to give a true sense of depth. I tried to capture this view with my camera... but some things just simply cannot be realistically experienced with a two-dimensional image such as that. A shame. I'd love to share what I saw. I am already planning on going back in a couple of weeks. That's how much I like it. Not the best in the world, or even Colorado, but the best that can quickly arrived at.